Tuesday, January 1, 2013


2012 was a year full of changes and packed with work. It was also a year of personal stress for me. Only now am I climbing out of that darkness into a better place. It's been a year of growth, that's for sure.

My dad and I
In 2011 I had to put my dad into assisted living because he was diagnosed with fronto-temporal dementia (Pick's disease). Over the span of 12 months he deteriorated fast and I was faced with the task of finding a home with more care for him, from several thousand miles away. In September of 2012 he moved to his new home and now has the care he needs along with a loving staff to help him. They're very accommodating and set up times when I can video Skype with my dad. I was able to visit him during the holidays and was pleased when he recognized me. Although he could not say it out loud, his smile said it all. Though I feel guilty much of the time that I'm so far away, I know that my dad would be proud of me for doing what I love to do, make movies.

This holiday season I also had a good visit with my mother and we baked cookies together, just like we did when I was a little girl. My mom was really sweet and told me how proud she is of me for doing what is in my heart and putting myself into what I do. I stacked a lot of firewood for her. It was a very special time, and I'm grateful for it.
My favorites, molasses cookies

This was also a year chock full of movie releases and screenings; Sirwiñakuy in CineKink 2012 (NYC, Las Vegas, & Chicago), Maleficarum and Barbazul (Bluebeard) in movie theaters in Bolivia, and Le Marquis de la Croix on DVD and Download.

We received lots of great reviews, interviews, made friends, and connected more with the world and our fans. A positive year overall!

So, what's up for 2013? We'll be releasing Barbazul (Bluebeard) to DVD and Download, Dead, but Dreaming will come after that. We're planning to shoot the second chapter of Dead, but Dreaming, and my fourth film (4th!) as director, Olalla. So, stayed tuned for the flurry of activity that we have planned for this new year!


  1. Pictures like these are both painful and comforting at the same time. They comfort us with memories of joys we have known, yet can be painful for the reminder of what we've lost and can no longer recover. I work in healthcare and I give all my patient's families the same
    advice: You can't take care of others if you
    don't take care of yourself.

    Your performances are both exciting and talented. I hope your work as a Creative allows you to build for yourself the best possible world. "Not all those who wander are lost".


    Andrew (No URL)

    1. Thank you for your kind words, Andrew! It has been an uphill battle trying to exorcise my guilt for not being able to visit with my dad very often, living thousands of miles away can be an impediment. But I know I've done the best I can for him. And we can only hope to do our best, right?

      "Not all those who wander are lost" is right on the mark. Life is a wonderful process to me, good or bad as it may be in moments, I hope to never stop learning from every experience.

  2. I know what you're going thru Amy. I cared for my mother for four years and watched her pass on. You never forget something like that. I send you all my best wishes for both you and your father as well as prayers.

    1. Thank you so much for your kind words!